morning, afternoon, evening and night

sickness.

Usually worst in the afternoon.

I'm thinking pink.

Poor Paul. I promise, I will eventually get the house clean. Really I will. I will make myself do it, somehow.

My husband is so tolerant of my clear lack of housekeeping skills.

Shroedinger's Baby

So for those of you who do not yet know, or have not yet guessed. I am pregnant, my due date by LMP is February 1st, and by ultrasound is February 8th. I forgot to ask the doctor which one we would use.

I had my first OB appointment last week. It was nice to see the OB and his staff again. They are like friends at this point. Actually when Dr. Wheeler saw me he said "At it again? This is great. You're like an annuity!"

My ultrasound showed a healthy baby with a strong heart beat. It also showed that there was a second baby, without a heartbeat who appeared to have stopped developing. There is about a 1% chance that the second baby will survive (it could just be slightly younger gestationally and the heartbeat not yet discernible). So it is fair to assume that I will only have one baby, and I am deeply grieved for the loss of its twin. But I continue to pray hard for the second baby and barely allow myself to hope.

I have been a mopey mess for the last week since the appointment. But Paul was able to make me giggle a little yesterday when I was snacking and he said "You're eating for 2, plus Shroedinger's Cat".

I think my emotions are compounded by a sort of guilty feeling. Like maybe if I had done things differently then the baby would be okay. And then the fact the I didn't particularly want twins, and feel incapable of handling them. It's strange I don't want twins, but I do now because I want both of my babies.

My next ultrasound is July 16th. Which seems like ages away. But by then it will be obvious.

Whoosh!

That's how the last few weeks have gone. We spent last week in Florida visiting Grandad (Paul's dad) and Bernice. The trip had lots of ups (the beach, the boat, etc.) and downs (bad traffic, heat, humidity etc.). But all in all it was more than worthwhile, and gave the kids a chance to get to know their grandfather a little.

I haven't posted much lately because I have news that I want to post, but I cannot yet post.

The summer looks to be very busy. We have very few unplanned weekends left.

I am feeling somewhat bummed right now. And I generally just don't feel like doing everything that needs to be done. But with children, I just don't have the option of taking time off.

finishing out the trip

On our trip home from Kansas City we took the girls to the St. Louis Zoo. Which Naomi absolutely loved. She especially loved the penguins, but she liked everything. We had to physically pry her away from several exhibits.

Then we spent the night in Terre Haute at the Days Inn which is newly refurbished. It was a really nice experience. We have spent a lot more on hotels that weren't as nice.

Then the next morning we went to Rose Hulman and walked around with Sam and Abby. First we stopped in Blumberg and Mees. Then we went to the bookstore. We were surprised to see that the WORX is now Noble Romans Pizza. Then we played pool in the game room. Which was mostly trying to teach the kids how to poke at the balls with sticks.

We walked around in the classroom buildings and Paul went to visit with professors while I bought the children a snack at the coffee shop (in Moench).

After our visit to Rose we ate at the Burger King on 46, which we were pleasantly surprised to discover has a slide.

On the way home we wanted to stop for ice cream. But that proved to be more difficult than anticipated. We first stopped at two closed ice cream shops before finding a Culver's Frozen Custard where the four of us shared a large sundae.

Then we stopped at Nana's house and got our other two children, went to dinner at Bob Evans (per Abby's request) and finally arrived home!

Our time since then has been a flurry of activity. So I don't think I'll even try to catch up, since I'm almost a month behind.